The anticipated night had reluctantly crept up amongst them... The inevitable was finally here. It was time for them to face the reality whether it be harsh or not...The night brought about a clear glittery sky full of stars and hope... William had arranged for a quiet beach starlit dinner...it was nostalgic, reminding them of their first romantic date, where they still had the passion and eagerness of young love... Now as they sit across each other, where they had once made passionate love, with the presence of the eagerness and the absence of the passion... They both had secrets that night, William's was in a black box crept up in his pocket; her's were at the tip of her tongue, both yearning to let it all out...
The unbearable restlessness forces them both to call out to each other, clashing tongues cause them to pause... "You go first hun" William said; he had already waited this long, he was willing to wait forever for her... "Alrite" she says, she takes a deep breath, inhaling all the insecurity and deceit and acquainted lies along with the sweet familiar smell of William's musky cologne... As she exhales, she realized she was the cause...it was as if she had exhaled the toxication of the insecurity and dishonesty... she was lyin to herself all this while, she was the cause... She glanced back into William's eyes, looking deep into his soul, as if already begging for forgiveness... "It is my fault, I havent been fully honest with you William..." William stops her right there... He had long realized his naive illusion... He had long understood her illicit affairs... He had long known her unfaithfulness yet, at that time, he refused to know; he always had hope and passion(and an illusion) to overcome such small details...Now, the truth lays right before them...
William finally allows his reason to overcome his illusion of hope... As she continues, "I'm not worthy William, I have strayed while you were away and I was confused and...." William stands up... While his hands were reaching into his pocket, he thought of what had had him striving all this time, he thought of all he had before and all that was him... it was her... Her loving touch, her familiar smell, her stunning smile, her one-of-a-kind charisma...and most importantly her once undoubted loyalty. His loyalty had kept him going for years, yet she had failed to understand that, she had failed to do the same...
He reaches into his pocket while exhaling such passion which was once mistaken to be love... In his hands, a black box...He gracefully walks toward her as if there were no complications whatsoever... He stops right in front of her, kneels down on a knee... looks right into those eyes he had once yearned for while he held her warm yet trembling hands... There was a pause as he glanced right inot her eyes, as if to forever remember what he had fought for, what he would have died for...He had a calm smile on his face, one she was bound never to forget...He gently pulled out her hand, placing the black box in her anxious sweaty palms... He leans over to her ear and whispers "I love you baby"...He stands up and walks away...A tear flows down her cheek, she was awestruck, swept off her feet by his words, yet buried by guilt and shame... She opens the black box to find a folded letter of some sought... written in it "I had always known you had brought other men to feel your womb as I did yet I never wanted to acknowledge it, now I'm forced to..and I'm the only one to be blamed, I had left you, I had abandoned you. This is now the last time I'll ever have you hurt by me again...I'm sorry, Lucy, I've always loved you and always will"
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