All I Can Do

This pain, this agony
not caused by fists
not caused by words
but of inaction

never thought such pain
such loneliness, such helplessness
can be caused by not being hit
can be caused by not being kicked
but by avoiding this brutality

never thought that I could
out of all my heart
abandon someone as I did
throw away the friendship I had
forsaking my will

never thought that, out of it all
that I could allow him to be alone
that I could watch him be alone
while I stood still, afraid
afraid of circumstances and consequences

never thought that, even if
I was defending the ones I loved
I would forsake the one who was close
in order to assure my family
I abandoned a friend in need

I should have went out
I should have helped
I could have helped
I could have done more
Yet, I stood still...

Now, all I can do is regret
live with what guts I have left
live with what dignity I have left
live with the sins I have
live with a lost friend
in hopes of him finding the right path

Awaiting another Holocaust

Coming back home for the first time in a year has been fun... Bored at times but nonetheless fun, afterall i am doing almost nothing progressive for 2 months... but its also been an eye opener... i always thought that home was a sanctuary where men and women of all races could come together as one without worrying about colour, without worrying about culture, without worrying about discrimination... i always thought that this country wasn't one that encouraged racism... but i've been proven wrong yet again...

This nation, Malaysia, a nation made up of peoples of different races has now turned its backs on the ones who are already abandoned... even malaysians are against the forsaken... even my fellow friends are against what I stand for...This so called racist-free country is not as "free" as i thought it was...in fact, they are no better than the Americans themselves... I've been hearing this alot lately "these blacks foreigners have been causing the crime rate to increase" or "its because of these black people that people are afraid to leave their house at night"...calling men "niggers" as if they weren't even of the same flesh and blood... All these comments, all these discriminations, all this is absolute crap... most blacks i see are those who are employed and those who are educated or being educated... almost all the blacks i've seen here are those who merely strive for a decent living just like the rest of us...

But, its the indians who are killing and robbing, its the malays who are unemployed and the indonesians who are stealing, its the cops who are corrupt and the politicians who are swindling... every country despite race, nationality or religion has criminals... yet, people, ignorant and merciless creatures, choose to blame someone other than themselves and since everyone else is already senselessly blaming the blacks...its always the blacks...of course, isn't it the same as the holocaust... the reason for the holocaust in the first place was because the world blamed the jews for anything and everything... as much as men would love to blame this solely on the nazi's, the world was at fault... they tried to run as refugees yet nations refused "their people"... nations refused to accept free people in need of help... oh, i almost forgot, their jews, i'm sure their all bad rite? Aren't the blacks doing the exact same thing right now? Isn't this dejavu? Shouldn't we learn from history? Shouldn't we have stopped this racist bullshit by now?

Oh, wait, i almost forgot, they're blacks, they can't be trusted, they're a nation and culture of criminals, they're a race of punks and drop outs right?
Are we going to wait? Are we going to sit and watch this nation of people live hell on earth? Are we going to help a person who is trapped in poverty and prejudice? or should we wait for yet another Holocaust to happen?