Anti Social

I've given this quite a bit of thought... of why my family for the most part are antisocial... our antisocialness has always been such a mystery to me... I've been trying to figure this out for a year or so now... and FINALLY!!... it hit me... We are antisocial and there's no downside to it... Us, family prefer to keep our lives as family business... Only when someone has earned the trust of family and only then can we let out our life secrets... Why u ask..

Why? well...i've been wondering all this time too... aside from the obvious trust related fact, there's more to it... I feel anyways... So here goes... The ultimate answer I have been searching for... It is because of... people... yes people... friends, relatives, strangers... Nobody listens these days... People do not listen to advice, concerns or just conversations... people are too eager to talk and chat and begin a conversation instead of having a conversation... And I don't mean a conversation as in a long, dull senseless crap which people seem to exceedingly indulge in... I mean conversations about life... about where we're headed to... about "life's ethics" basically... i was raised to do more than just talk... I was raised to think... think of such things... the unnoticed dilemmas of life... The things that people, as a whole, do not normally think about... The truth which lies beyond the perception of mankind... Thats what I was raised to do... think... and yet, this thinking of such, which I now realize, is not part of the majority of lives... people don't bother to think... and talking about life could sometimes, not bore, but go beyond the capability of most... I believe that many people refuse to comprehend the truth or life's meaning, life's purpose, life's ethics...

My family and I ,on the other hand, chose to embrace this meaning and purpose... We chose to pursue this meaning to life... I choose to do so, only because I think that only through finding and achieving our purpose in life, can we enjoy life's wonders... Only through this can we achieve the inner peace which I've heard so much of and yet, failed to see a success... We strive for this inner peace... and I think lots of people do but never seem to grasp their own lives within this concept.. and I feel that life has a meaning and a purpose which is beyond just me and you... and I intend...no I have begun the pursuit of this meaning... As I said, my destination is satisfaction and I will not accept any less... more is always an option... But along the way, I shall enjoy this journey of clustered emotions and mysteries...

The Unwritten Letter [of a mother]

My husband gives me an A
for last nights dinner
an incomplete for my ironing
a B plus in bed
My son says I am average, but if
I put my mind to it
I could improve
My daughter believes
in Pass/Fail and tells me
I pass. Wait 'til they learn
I'm dropping out
*Hahaha*

Death

Death, be not proud of thyself
For thou art cursed amongst men
For thou hath devoured the life of many
Many men of solemn and august
and yet, thou exult the men of smut and perversity
Death, be not proud of thyself
For the days of darkness shalt strike thy insolence
For I shalt not be weary of thee
And thou shalt not be feared
For even thou shalt meet thy trumpet of doom
The time shalt come for when I shalt defy thee
I shalt march through the Kingdom of Heaven
and I shalt contemn thee
For I will no longer be bounded by thy fate
And I shalt be free

Stupidity

People in this civilization, this current generation, the generation "Y"(i think)... the citizensof this society are no longer the clons of the past generations, the historical civilizations.. in fact, the society of today have vastly deteriorated beyond the lengths of the kings and queens of the, lets say, French Revolution... Not just the flashy, razzle-dazzle technology... but the mentality of people, the emotional stages of every distinct individual... People have changed and change is an inevitability...change is progress or change could also be regression(a step behind)... Unfortunately for us humans, the change in(the majority of) people have taken a sudden"U-turn" back... The technology which are created by these people are more advanced than anything we have ever seen before... but as I try to point out over and over again, it's not about materials... People as a whole and as an individual have to grow, gain, progress toward to betterment of humanity...

But it seems that stupidity and ignorance have consumed us... Arrogance, insensitivity, rapaciousness, greed, corruptness, delinquance, vicious malevolent characteristics have gradually yet, effectively crawled out of the sinful hearts of man... Just as a parasites suck the life out of its prey... These so called characteristics, too, have ripped through the feeble hearts of man, only to fester in the minds and souls...Lingering, waiting, craving for stupidity and ignorance to liberate the mind of all innocence and intelligence... and yet, people remain abiding to their very imbecillic and idiotic ways... People sit and stare at themselves, realizing there's a stupendous problem which cannot be cured by the wits of time... and yet, refusing, no... defying the very essence of the problem, themselves, ourselves...
How do I define stupidity and ignorance? Well... why bother, just look around us; the media, the people speak louder than words...

We have guided missiles and misguided men (Martin Luther King Jr.)