The Holocaust

Lately, in my religion class(student of a Catholic school), we have been... not studying but trying to faintly relive the Holocaust... to scarcely feel what the victims have felt.. Feeling the emotions of these victims is absolutely impossible... How could anyone re-enact such agony and suffering of millions of people...

The Holocaust has always brought in varying thoughts. My thoughts on the Holocaust evolves around a sick and sadistic plan of an ambitious and relentless determination of a merciless man. The Holocaust was a long-thought-of plan just to eliminate those who weren't of the Aryan race, mainly Jews. Although this plan was of such mawkish determination, this plan was undoubtedly ethically and morally unsound. This plan which was thought of just to further "perfect" the human race(and of course HItler's dislike towards Jews) was unsound then and still is now. This cruel result to the past victims makes the word discrimination seem fatally weak. While the Jews were not only stripped of their worldly properties but to millions of these victims, slaughtered inhumanely which leaves all others to feel a sense of disgust and agony.

The most fatal thought is the thought of even being able to plan out such an inhumane, monstrous and heartless genocide which have hurt millions of people, not only victims but others too. I don't feel that I have much of a right to express my insignificant thoughts compared to the millions before me who have suffered pain and anguish which in a way, is incomparable to any other wretchedness.

But I can say that the truth of the Holocaust have left me with sorrow for the victims and anyone who was involved with the victim. It has also caused a great dent in the history of mankind, mainly because of the killings but also because of the insanity of one man which was pursued by many others (the Nazis). The pitiful indulgence of mankind in utter stupidity is quite the disappointment and more of a letdown to the so called "perfected" creatures called man.

I Remember

For the past few months or even the past year or so... I have been struck by recalls of my childhood days... my childhood days where I used to go to church every Sabbath day... days where I used to strive toward God... days where I used to strive to alleviate my christianity... days where I used strive to the accompaniment of God... I remember the days where God was my main goal.. where God was not just a dream or just a man-made image... where I was repeatedly exhilarated by the omnipresence of God... where God was an enthusiastic part of my life... where even if the world were annihilated, it didn't matter because God gave me an utter sense of security which was perpetually resembled by the eternal love and everlasting care of an affectionate parent(or more so parents)...

But now... now I fret... now I fear... now I'm immensely insecure by the warring hearts of mankind... Now, I have gradually and painfully lost this security... I have subconsciously lost sight of the Alpha and Omega, the Savior, my Guardian, my God... I cannot lie to myself and announce Him as my God and yet, not offering myself fully into His guardianship... I want to find Him once again... I want to be able to feel the immense satisfaction of the connection with Him once again... I want to be able to put my life into His nurture and fullfill His demands or wishes He has planned for me even before my toddler days, even before my rugrat days... I sometimes take night walks hoping to catch a glimpse of His presence... hoping that somehow I could find my way back to His endearment... hoping to fall back into the depths of His evermore benevolence...

And I fear... I fear that I can't find Him... I fear that my life cannot once again be put into His ardent love... I fear that I have drifted a little too far from the grasp of His passionate care... I fear that my limited view on God is inadequate... that my love for God is just lacking... I fear that life itself would pull me down to the abyss of influences and temptations without the avail and guidance of God... All I can hope and pray for is that I would once again see the light of day where the presence of God is ecstatic in, around and about me... that I would once again be able to see through the dark and gloomy days of obscured reluctance and antipathy...

Christmas

As time passes by, Christmas draws closer... and yet the meaning of Christmas drifts further away than ever... Christmas has ultimately just deteriorated to become just another festival...just another occasion for a family reunion... just another feast which is consumed by people who do not or have not ever had the slightest clue as to the true life and meaning of Christmas... People who don't really understand what or why Christmas is what it is... And I might be categorized as someone who does not or has not grasped the true meaning of Christmas...

People always say Christmas is a time of giving... We all hear through the media, Christmas is a time of happiness and celebration... But to most people, the sole reason Christmas is what it is said to be is because Christmas is now just another holiday... although it is a little more celebrated in some countries but it has now become just another holiday, another vacation, another chance to indulge in the idleness of humanity... however, I have lost that point of view on Christmas... Christmas is not just another getaway anymore(maybe because finals come right after Christmas)... All I see now in Christmas, is the rememberance of Jesus' birthday... It might not be the exact date of birth of Jesus, but the fact remains... All I see in Christmas is just another reminder... reminder of where we all come from... reminder of what we are made of... A reminder of our Creator... In a way, Christmas is, to me, a memo from Jesus... reminding us that He was born on Christmas and He has died for us(the very same creatures who had killed Him)... reminding us that life is just not about me, myself and I... reminding us that we are not alone as lopsided as the odds may be... reminding us that we are just human after all... and life should not be wasted on the explicit lavishness of the over-spending consumerists...

Christmas has only been interpreted as just another... another common time of entertainment... another average period of festivities... just another joyous occasion... just another holiday... which I feel has been quite the misleading concept of Christmas.

Time

All I can do...is to look forward
forward to the future
despite grief
despite agony
despite regrets
despite bliss
despite glee
despite merriment
despite change
All I can do
is to look to the future

I wonder if I would dissapoint my future
dissapoint myself
dissapoint my family
dissapoint my friends
dissapoint God
dissapoint the world

I wonder if I would get lost
lost in the world
lost in time
lost and alone
without the priviledge of companionship
without the advantage of a relationship
without the hope I require to move on

I wonder where life would take me
life without friends
life without love
life without relationships
or
life accompanied by a soulmate
life replenished with love
life evolving around inevitable relationships

I wonder what time would do
to me, my life
to relationships
to love
to time
to people
to the world

A Miracle

Religion.... The utter meaning of religion(to most people) refers to strict laws of their people... And for the rest of us... religion is just another word... another term used merely to refer to our spirituality... Our spirituality which is often kept behind the curtain, kept in the dark... We(we, as in most fellow christians), are not compelled to pray as most people think... we are not compelled to attend church every week nor every day... We choose to...buildings, to me, do not matter... its not where we go to pray... it is where we stand under the eyes of God... the people and sincerity of the people which matter... How can someone say "not attending church is a sin"??... Worship, prayer and sincerity is, to me, the utmost importance in the realm of spirituality...

If a person who goes to church just for the sake of going, going to repent their sins knowing they're going to do the very same thing the next day, going just to dispose of the guilt of not praying or spending time with God, going to church just cause you're forced to...how could that make someone a better person than someone who is willing to spend as much time as he can talking and having a spiritual relationship with God??... church is not the only place where a relationship can be built with God... the presence of God hails all around us...

I try my best not to judge others(since no one is made perfect) and often don't... but I can't ignore the reality of the world when people come along about their daily lives and inevitably try their best to convince me into their "version" of religion...the "version" where people aren't allowed to join unless inherited in the veins of our body... the "version" where people carry out ridiculous and utterly senseless so called duties of God... the "version" where suicide bombing(taking many other innocent lives along with them) means a stairway to heaven... the "version" where killing others children of God who are not born of the same heritage is encouraged... the "version" where God's name is used in vain to achieve the greed of the human heart... the "version" where the freedom of people is no more important as a worldly property... the "version" where the miracle of life is less appreciated than the worldly consummerism... people often see no ends to the vanity of life...the arrogance to the fact that everyday we live is a miracle... a miracle which we, at most times, can't or won't apprehend... A miracle which others try to comprehend... a miracle of God

Live On For Tomorrow

We don't need anything or anyone
We don't need to care
We don't need to bother
We don't need to worry
Forget about the world
Forget the past
Live the present
For the sake of tomorrow
The tomorrow which takes us further
further into time
further into indulgence
further into seduction
further into temptation
which could lead us to
the next step of our lives
the next stage of our lives
the next phase of our lives
good or bad
thrilling or miserable
scrumptious or horrible
pleasing or inadequate
either or,
we have to live on
Live on for each other
Live on for tomorrow's sake

Faith Conquers...

Faith... What is faith?? Is faith trust?? Is faith hope?? Is faith believing?? The world says "Seeing is believing" but faith fires back "believing is seeing!!"...

80% of the worlds population are faithful to a religion... As time passes and a new generation takes over... The meaning of faith begins to crumble to our very feets... Faith can not be explained just through the english dictionary... Faith is the combination of the three most life changing words; Trust, Hope, Belief.... Faith is not just a matter of believing what you see through the short ranged eye-sight of a mortal but seeing what you believe through the spiritual mind lead by God.. Faith is a muscle in the spiritual body, we just have to learn to use it through God... Faith drives a dreamer; faith drives a fighter; faith drives a successor... Faith is telling the commoners of the world that you are different... Faith is telling others that you believe not only what is present but also believe in your future achievements... Faith is knowing that your current goals and dreams will become reality... Faith is knowing that all that was, is and of which to come, are safe in the hands of God... Success cannot be obtained through hope itself... success has to be fought for through faith(and determination)...

People don't have to aim to be perfect; we just have to have faith that our best is yet to come... Life doesn't always seem to be going the way you want it to but thats why faith is there to tell us to "hold on, the fruit is closer than you think"... Faith is the essence of all discoveries... science has always circulated around the faith that looks can be deceiving...the consistent use of faith can only lead to the inevitable prevail of success... Faith conquers... faith conquers all doubt, worry and most of all, faith conquers all fear...

Fear

Two months have past... i went home, had some fun and added one more person to my short list of loved ones...now the time has come to get back to my routine... the same old same old school routine which i have taken up for the past year... Back in canada and back in school... teachers are great, life here is great and students...well... they're ok... and as usual...life goes on...it has to..

Fear; to some people, a measure of courage... to others, a subject better left behind the shut cache... fear can come in many forms; fear of creepy crawlers, fear of heights, fear of commitment, fear of death, fear of failure, fear of dissapointing others, and sometimes, the fear of fear itself...

Fear deprives us of our guts, our audacity, our endurance... and yet at the same time, fear could unleash our greatest, most invicible predominance... Fear could cause some to flee without thought, without hesitation, without wits but with the speed of light... fear could also cause some to stand their ground and fight.. courage driven by fear, ironic but true... My greatest fear on the other hand, cant be solved or overcomed by running or fighting... cant be overcomed by mere bones and muscles... cant be overcomed by kicking and screaming... My fear goes far beyond the physical ways of us feeble mortals... The fear of losing someone, the fear of losing a loved one, a cherished one, a dearest one... How could that fear ever be overcomed? how can this fear of which can never be predicted or manipulated be overcomed? How can a fear of which can't be reached, touched or felt be overcomed by mere mortals? How can a man live without his loved ones? How can a man go on without the affection, amity, or amour of those whom he loves so much that he cant let go? How will anyone succeed in life without the utter presence of a loved one? Fear has not deprived me of anything... fear has driven me to hang on... as long as i can... to the ones i love and hold dearest... to live life to the fullest....

Respect it, Cherish it, Live it

In this barely surviving, twisted generation... People are often meandered by their own ignorance... Many people these days blame their inedequacies on history. Do not be mistaken, the past is what has made our future... However, blaming our forefathers for our blemish or incompetence is the source of all irresponsibility... The lack of the will to fulfill our own responsibilities causes most people to blame our history... For those who still dont quite get where I'm getting to, here's an example...a person of an Aboriginal decent who blames the white man for mistreating them in the past which has ultimately detained their potential... this statement is not directed as a stereotypical statement... but the truth remains, this is an issue currently being argued by many people... yes... no doubt about the mistreatment of Aboriginals in the PAST... but this is the present and all men are equal now... every man is granted with the equal education and job opportunities aqnd ultimately equal rights... This situation is exactly what many people and races are debating... Same goes for the black, white, asian, hispanic, pacific islander, and other ethnic groups... the fact remains the same... people have fought throughout history for the rights as a human being... what we should be doing is to appreciate and respect their effort and sacrifices; instead of continually setting implications of discontent and dissatisfactory... Instead of pushing our responsibilities towards our forefathers... instead of denouncing our forefathers with our incompetence... In this day and age, people are born with equal rights, whether black, white or any colour or race... the human rights are granted to all humans .... respect it, cherish it, live it...

Word of God

Yesterday's passing makes it just another day closer to home... Havent been doing much today besides some cleaning up here and thr... aside from that, the birds are chirping, the wind is dancing and the trees are waving... so i guess u could say that its all good... todays post might appear to be a little religious in a way... dont mean to preach or anything but just pointing out my views on this... all readers who are easily offended by religious matters... do not bother reading this post... btw, this blog was written for a religion class...

In Matthew 25:31 to 25:40, it is written, and I quote " For I was hungry and you gave me food; I was thirsty and you gave Me drink; I was a stranger and you took Me in; I was naked and you clothed Me; I was sick and you visited Me; I was in prison and you came to Me." and also "The King will answer and say to them, 'Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of my brethren, you did it to Me". These verses are actually quite straight forward and clear to the people. However, People do not always grasp the simplest of concepts. In this passage, God intended His people to understand that by helping others in need, you are in return serving Him as intended. This verse brings me back to goodness. Through this verse, the word of God explains the depth of goodness itself. Goodness is not done to receive worldly rewards. However, God will grant His rewards. These rewards are not granted because of the mere act of goodness but the sincerity of goodness itself. Just as Matthew 25:37 to 25:39 stated that "when have we ever done these things for God?". Only the righteous will ask this question of sincerity and pureness. They who do not look for a reward for the goodness achieved are the ones who will in return receive the greatest reward of all; the God-given reward. Ultimately, this statement applies to us all. Helping others in need for the very sincerity of goodness is the way of life; whether you're helping a family, friend, stranger or an enemy. In the eyes of God, we're all equally smart, equally loved and equally foolish. The identity of the person you're helping does not change the fact that by helping someone, you're in return helping God's people and serving Him. I believe that this statement of truth further requires us to question ourselves. How many times are we willing to forgive a brother, a friend or an enemy? How far would you go to prevent harm from a friend or foe? How many of us would actually even consider to help a stranger in need? Ultimately, how much are you willing to offer a friend or foe? The list of questions are unlimited and new questions continue to arise. One thing's for sure; when the time comes for us, humans to be judged by our God, our goodness and sincerity will not go unsaid.

Spirituality

well...after 10 months, classes are finally over and done with... my exams are officially over and now, time for one long summer break... going back to home sweet home... long awaited journey... Just another post for the readers to enjoy...

Spirituality is often known as a property or income owned by the church. In fact, it is defined as "Something, such as property or revenue, that belongs to the church or to a cleric." in the dictionary. Churches were never supposed to be the ONLY ground of spirituality. Churches are linked to spirituality but that does not mean that churches are spirituality itself. Spirituality, to me, is the will to serve; serve God and His people. The word of God I feel has emphasized on this point over and over again; :love thy neighbor, keep your enemies close, even when Jesus washed the feet of His disciples. The humbleness to serve is the key to spirituality. When a man is willing to care for another, despite worldly possessions and living status, he has ultimately learned to respect another human being. The humility to serve will ultimately teach a person the meaning of respect, to accept people as they are, to be non judgemental; instead of judging a person by his/her looks. Humility does not mean to have a low self-esteem but on the contrary, to have the maturity and the rationality and most of all the simplicity to put spirituality ahead of all worldly possessions. Spirituality is not ruled by the church, it is to be encouraged by the church. To put it in simplest words, spirituality is, to me, communication with God. God's presence extends further than just the church and can be enjoyed anywhere we stand. Spirituality teaches even the toughest ruffian the meaning of simplicity, humility, appreciation, respect, communication, and most of all, it teaches people to love. Before God we are all equally wise and equally foolish.

Goodness

It's been quite a while since i have even posted anything up... I guess since exams have kept me busy for a while... the last post was at the end of april... and now june is coming to an end.. one last final final exam on monday....finally... summer break... and HOME SWEET HOMe... just one more exam... and lets just hope for the best.. well... I have a few posts to publish... Here goess...


Goodness is defined as the state or quality of being good in the dictionary. In the eyes of commoners, many see goodness as anything beneficial or pleasurable. The world defines goodness just as the dictionary defines it. I, on the other hand, believe that goodness cannot just be obtained from anyone or anything. Goodness to me only comes from those who are sincere. The sincerity of those people is the source of all that is pure and good. Many people often get confused over worldly goodness and the true goodness intended by God. Pride has taken over many of our concerns. We are now more concerned over the prosperity of money which many of us find to be the greatest "good" of all humanity. Most of the world is more consumed by the thought of worldly wealth; not for the better of humanity but for the better of an individual. Goodness has become just a word to express delight nowadays. However, goodness does not come from mere enjoyment of a certain activity. Smoking, drugs and sex might be enjoyable but it is not necessarily good. That does not mean goodness must be endured in pain and suffering. Goodness can be enjoyed through helping others in need; not to receive a reward but just out of the kindness and sincerity of the heart. The will to endure the pain and burden with a friend just because he/she is a friend or even if he/she's not a friend. As the saying goes "Keep your enemies closer to you than your neighbors". This does not mean to track every movement of your enemy as a precaution but to forgive an enemy out of sheer goodness; to make an enemy a close friend is the biggest challenge of all goodness. Goodness is not carried out for the sake of rewards or redemption or a mere compensation of past sins. Goodness comes from those who are willing to give their best to people; family, friends, strangers and even enemies.

Seed of Life

Last time i published any post was quite some time ago i guess... havent been doin much lately besides reading, watching an anime series and school as usual... oo...yeh and have been trying my very hardest to contact a couple of frens... well... i guess they too are busy with school and all... can't blame them for going to school rite.... can't wait for all the new movies to come... davinci code, X-men3, M-I3, and so on... all coming out in may... well thr goes another 50 bucks...haihz... i guess thats coming out from my weekly allowance...

The seed...The seed is a necessity to the lives of those who roam upon this enchanted lands of humanity... This seed is so imense that it could be heard from far away in space... This seed of which I speak of does not involve the budding of plants or the sprouting of crops but the blooming of ones character... The sprouting of ones attitude... The beginning of a personality...

(now, back to the language of the rather common people)...A seed... a seed has to be planted in every one of our hearts as we were once infants and toddlers... all of which is then, now and will be originates back to the long-ago planted seed... This very same seed is not identical to our brothers', sisters' or friends'... these seeds are similar to seeds of varied plants... and just as a rose may bloom slower than a sunflower, a man's true personality blooms at different times, rates and velocity as his fellow mortals... This seed is planted in us by our parents, by our brothers and sisters.... by God... when we were too young to acknowledge reality... However, experience is needed to nurture and grow this very seed of life... This seed is not just limited to words, it is extended to experiences; emotional and physical... That is why Alexander GrahamBell invented the phone(deaf mother)... That is why Gandhi turned to be who he is(poverty and harsh experiences)... heck, that is why Hitler turned out to be a Nazi leader(harsh childhood)... and that is also why I am who I am... Parents, brothers, sisters, family, friends have all once planted seeds in our very minds and hearts... the very same seeds which grow in a matter of years or even months...

However(theres always a however), these seeds cannot be interpreted as an excuse of the person which sprouts out of it... Life is what you make of it... The seed planted is only a guide-line to life... the rest, the watering and the fertilizing is up to the owner... The seeds do not determine a man's life... Hitler for example... he had grown to be a man of such anger, outrage and enmity which inflames his very heart with discrimination and antagonism... His harsh childhood became an excuse for his deranged mentality... He wasn't born to be harmful... he was just mislead somewhere along the lines of his life... Gandhi, on the other hand took his harsh experiences and turned it into a reason to strive and help those who have experienced the life of his own... to bring the suffering of his fellow brothers to a standstill through peace...

Love Thy Neighbor

Gone through quite a few days without publishing any posts now... and frankly, I really miss it... Being busy cannot stand as an excuse for me not to blog as I wasnt even busy... however, i have been doing a little thinking lately.... about life and God, our creator... So for those who are easily offended by religious posts... please excuse me and ignore this blog if you want to... I hope I do not get too much into religion...

I have been reading this christian novel...as surprising or unreal as it may seem, it is true... This novel has actually got me thinking once again... thinking of issues which concern me and all of man-kind in fact... It is stated in the bible that "you shall love thy neighbor as yourself"(second greatest commandment) ... this phrase has probably surpassed the ears of many of us commoners before... but.... but how many of us actually register this statement of truth in our corrupt minds?? how many of us actually apply this phrase in our daily lives of senseless pollution?? how many of us actually... and i mean truly grasp the depth of this statement... It is stated as the second greatest commandment for a pure and simple reason actually...

And this reason remains simple even till this very day... despite the arisings of complications... This statement attains its rank from its caliber... the importance of this statement explains it all...I for one, believe the very words of this phrase is actually the answer to the ultimate question... How do we attain worldpeace??? With the adoption of this statement in our everyday lives, peace will not have to be an issue of distress and tension... This statement explains that love everyone as you may love yourself... So, unless you are a one of those berserk suicide bomber crackhead fanatic, this shouldn't be much of a dilemma... This ultimately means... love everyone, despite their acts, despite their words, despite their thoughts... Those who forgive are those who are loved... Learn from your mistakes and those of others... Jesus sacrificed himself for the very same people who discriminated Him... the very same people who accused Him of blasphemy... Despite all that, can't we act as people of virtue and respect?? Can't we repay Him in this small little way?? can't we ultimately decide on ending this society of the moronic catastrophe and this demented age of enmity and hostilities???

be yourself

Just another day passed by with school, sleep, reading and now blogging...and later even more sleep... Turns out that my social exam was just as I expected... haihz... all that I had studied was not exactly worth it... well....knowledge is its own reward... but most of the questions on the exam were based on the few forgotten materials.... the ones which I had not taken notes on... well, i did get 34/50 which was basically the class average...

Children, teenagers and even a certain number of adults nowadays are overrun with the feeling of dissatisfaction towards their own physical and mental situation.... These people are frequently bothered by the "what if"s and "if only"s.... these discontents and desolations has driven these people into drastic measures... these people have turned to their last resort... they pretend to be someone or something they're not... they reduplicate the people of the "normal" standards... Achieving this "normal" standard seems to be the only way of 'fitting in' this corrupt and judgemental almost-broken-down society...

If this is what it takes to be "accepted", is this really worth the act?? Does acting through your whole life really make you that different?? Does faking the mere existence of your presence reduce anymore of the real you?? Does hiding your true self behind a mask really conceal yourself?? Isn't that counted as bluffing yourself?? In impersonating other characters, isn't that just as entertaining as a mere mime?? Just another human who hasn't the character or emotions of oneself?? Does cloning others not just degrade oneself to that of an artificial intelligence?? Let me rephrase that... artificial stupidity??? Just another dumb-trick?? another fiddle-faddle?? another absurdity??

Have we truely forgotten the meaning of self-expression??

Life's Purpose

Past week or two has been such a "blah" week... Nothing much to it... same old same old until today... Because I have social exam tomorrow... and I dont think I'll be doing too good... Although i have studied... but somehow, the material I do study doesnt seem to appear on the exam paper... which is quite dissapointing actually... well anyways... hope it all goes fine... As to my current post, I have been reading this book "How to live life on purpose"... and this author, this book actually is quite straight forward and true as a matter of fact...

Life is defined as a matter of the existence of an organism... wether human, animal, or plant... we all exist in this world... Purpose is defined as the object toward which one strives or for which something exists... These two words, these two terms... are differential... However, they are linked together as a parent is linked to their infant... Without the parent, there can be no infant... Without the parent, the infant is non-existent... Just as life and purpose... Life is absurd, blank, just another empty bottle if not for purpose... my point is... to live without a purpose is not to live at all... it is just like living in idleness... Without a purpose, the mere existence of an organism is useless, vain, nonsensical... If a man lives through his whole life without realizing this, this man is obselete... this man is not in service in other words...

To have a purpose is to have a vision... A vision is the source of all purpose... a vision of the honorable gives birth to a purpose worth living for... The very same vision which keeps a person away from the grasp of resignition... the very same vision which motivates a man's spirit... The one thing which can only be given up without being taken... The very same vision which keeps a man clinging on to the things he truly cares for... The things which a man could live and die for... The very same vision which could drive a whole society, community or even a whole world of fellow humans...

Conscience

Haven't published any post for the past few days now... Not that I was busy or anything, just hadn't the mood or more so the topic... The past week has been my spring break... and now, I'm about to go back to school... well... I guess the holidays were fun while it lasted... watched a whole load of movies... at least I'm up-to-date with movies now... last night was spent on finishing up my homework and home-project... So in a way, it wasn't exactly last-minute... although I did procrastinate... Well, the good news is that I'm done with all my work...

There are mainly two distinct types of characeteristics of an average human...The unprincipled and the conscientious... By that, i mean the moral and the immoral in other words... People of the immoral and the unprincipled plague this already corrupt world with their fiendish acts and disregarding characters... The very same characters which can pollute the mind of a 5-year-old... The very same characters which corrupt our countries(also known as politicians)... The very same characters which are heedless and reckless against our all-so-frail society of civilization... These unprincipled, uncivilized, rapacious race play a role in this enchanted world as the bad apple, the black sheep, the calamitous snake, the unwanted inhabitants...

The conscientious, however, are the heroes of this generation... These common people which undoubtedly earn an honest living keep this fragile community from falling apart... These conscientious mortals provide the society with a windfall of ace and admirable character... The backbone of our human race in other words... These conscientious commendable gratifying characters are the only foundation of this tainted and unwholesome world... These people give us the only good in this world ... they give us a reason to live as God essentially desires... As most of us yearn for... As most of us crave for...

History

Today was a great day if I may say so... never been better in fact... I watched the long anticipated V for Vendetta... Not an everbody-show... I loved it...i gotta say that... but not everyone would enjoy this movie i guess... Also, I had the time to watch three other movies... Elizabethtown, School of Rock and Ice Age... All good movies... and on top of that... I got about half of my work done... and to butter it all up... I bought a book...

History... Some forgotten, some written and some studied... Most significant events were recorded down on history books... Leaving the people of the present to learn about their fore-fathers... Some history were forgotten past, never recorded, wether because of the lack of intelligence or the reluctance to compose the abhorrent... Either way, these historians have gone down unsaid, unheard, disremembered... Most of us humans, do not exactly appreciate the abyss of this "history"... Most of us humans, go through our everyday-lives without realizing that all that is now roots way back from the makings of our forefathers... Most of us humans, live our whole life not knowing that all that is now good and free was once fought and died for in history...

History might merely be a word to most people out there... history might just be another subject for those students who are just trying to get through their education... History might be nothing more than a tale of a grumpy old man to some... No matter how this topic is looked at, history remains the foundation of this, so called, "civilization"... Keep in mind that history is the fights and disputes of our forefathers who were sacrificing their lives just for our convenience or benefits...most of those heroic men knew very well that they wouldn't be able to experience this "age of civilization" and yet, they stood and argued... they stood and fought... they stood and died... just so that we, now, could have our luxury of freedom or the human rights or even well-deserved education... Despite all these sacrifices, people(not only children) go on ranting about having to learn how our forefathers fought or how they lived and died... Despite all these sacrifices, people still do not appreciate their advantages... Despite these sacrifices, the very same advantages which were killed and died for, which was once exalted and commemorated, are now taken for granted and vaguely remembered... or even disremembered for that fact... comdemned from its throne... Forgotten by all.....

What if...???

Today hasn't been such a bad day... considering I'm on my one week break... Nothing much do....Guess I got to start on my math project pretty soon... Besides that, I have been sitting down and watching tv as promised... Domino and Initial D... weird combinations but both movies worth the time... and by the way, I can't believe Domino is based on a true story... The days are getting unpredictable... Today's post relates to God, and those of you'll who do not exactly agree or consent, please don't take any offense...

God once said that He would return to earth... That He would once again descend upon this place we call earth... What if God were to return to earth once again in the form of an insignificant carpenter working on the streets of New York... What if God were to descend upon us in disguise of a shoe-maker amongst the people of New Jersey... What if God were to appear on the vast lands of Canada.... What if.... What will we feeble humans do? How will we react to His holy and exalted presence... Will we once again accuse Him of blasphemy? Will we once again distrust our very Master, Lord Almighty, our very King.... The creator of all mankind... Will we brush Him aside as man had once done? Will we once again deny our King, our Creator, the Alpha and Omega of all.... Will we once again deny our God of recognition and admission?? Will we once again ignore His teachings and miracles??

Or will we tremble in joy in the presence of our Lord?? Will we accept His words and teachings as we accepted life?? Will we learn to acknowledge the very omnipresence of our Father? Will we stand before Him in ore ready to be judged by Him?? Will we grasp and cherish His companionship and at the same time respect and worship His leadership? Will we finally learn from our past mistakes?? will we finally learn from History....Will we finally???

Rights

Spring break has just begun... fortunately... No plans for this holiday though... Only plan is to sit at home and enjoy my tranquility... and for those of you'll who think that relaxation is just wasting a holiday, thats the way I like... Just rented a couple of movies too... domino and cinderella man... Should be great... will be watching it later...

Rights... This word does not merely describe the correct and incorrect... This word also explains equality and inequality... The rights of the creations of God... The human rights, animal rights, and the well-deserved rights of nature itself... Most people take these rights no more than the freedom which was fought and died for... Rights... This term has been fought for... verbally and physically... Lives have been sacrificed willingly and relentlessly for these rights... Some go down in history and sadly, some don't... Taking advantage of these rights are just blatant and dishonorable... Rights are meant to be respected as it has once been exalted... These rights were once esteemed as life was once cherished...

Rights are not an advantage waiting to be used against another... Rights are not "man-made".. Rights are the very caliber of a community... It supports our frail society of the foul and malevolent... Rights decide between the appropriate and the unjust... It draws the line between the admissible and the unsuitable... The lawful and the unfair... Rights are the conscientious and ethical inheritant of any born child of any race, religion or colour... Rights are adapted... Rights are earned... Rights are deserved....

Judgment Day

One more day passes by like any other... only thing is today I missed my first class... First and only time i hope, my bus actually did not come... I mean the bus did not stop at the bus stop... We, 15 patient student, waited for the bus for at least 30 minutes... and so we went home and some stayed at home and the rest of us took the public bus which only got us to the school 5 minutes before the next period... haihz....what a way to start the morning... Anyways, off to start a new post and i'll try to do this fast and nice... (because I am kinda sleepy)

The only fate we humans have ultimately is death... and as death swallows your very soul... and sooner or later it will... and as death come upon us... the only thing that drowns the minds of these victims is the judgment day... The day that we are ultimately judged by God, the only One worthy of anticipation... The day that we meet our doom on earth and live on in a higher place (or a place of adversary)... The day that life on earth is no more... The day that our actions on earth are appraised by God Himself... and the pre-eminent question is... what will you do? How will you respond when you're judged? How will you answer to the utmost judgment?

Will you face God as a miraculous creation of His or as a freak accident of a parent?? Will you face Him as a man of honour or as a disgrace of society?? Will you, when the time comes, act as a civil man or as a savage animal?? When the time comes, all these will not matter, for God sees us all as His creation... Every man is equal through His gentle and loving eyes... The very same eyes of a parent towards a child...and for when the time comes, all thoughts come to a standstill... The only thing that matters now is if you are willing to accept God, to walk along side His presence in heaven, to receive His love with open arms, to nurture and nourish the love of God as He had(and will) always cherished us, his children, for who we are, for who we were made to be... For who we were born to be...

Responsibility

Just another day of the weekend... Lazing around for almost the whole day... went to a friend's place to laze around for the rest of the day and i just came back after a three hour or so visit... Watched chill factor today.... kind off an old one, not a bad one, but nothing great.... expected more from Cuba Gooding Jr.... pitiful actually.... coming from the man who acted in Men of Honour and Pearl Harbor and this??....haihz.... anyways....besides all this senseless activities... all goes as usual...life goes on...

Responsibilty... A word strong enough to crush a titan...if used wisely... As any person would or would not say, responsibilties are the essence of our everyday lives... Responsibilities come along with the very essence of freedom...The mere essence of life itself unfolds this word... Responsibilities are sewed into the very flesh and blood of our frail human bodies... Just like duties, responsibilities are the backbone of a civil community... The foundation of an elaborate building of society... The principal roots of humans, people...civilization... Humanity as we know it involves the evolution of responsibilities....

However, how many of us truely knows what this word is... We do know what it stands for and the technical definition of it... But do we truely know the depth of this word... Without responsibilities... we humans will not be (self-implied) calling ourselves "civil"... Without responsibilties... we humans will not even have the slightest idea of hopes and dreams... Responsibilities give us hope, life and dreams... Responsibilities make us who we are now... "Humans"

Selfish

Today was one of those long dreary days where you just ask yourself... When will the day end? haihz... Just another long, drab, drag, weary and boring day.... First period: Science, sub teacher, 2nd period: Math, exam... 3rd Period: CALM, a ridiculous class... a fool's errand, lost cause, wasted effort.... haihz....

Egoistic, egocentric, egotistic and egomaniacal..... All of which enfolds these three letters: Ego ; however, at the very same time, these words represent the grudging and voracious word: Selfishness... Children are warned by their parents at a young age that this greedy word is not a trait of honour or respect... most parents are careful to teach their children the depth of this word as their children bloom into adolescents... Adults try their best to set a good example for younger children to discard this rapacious word full of jealousy and stuck-up ignorance... And yet... yet... All children end up being self-centered at one point or another... Some more than others... If it is to betray a friend for the convenience of yourself, or to abandon your parents as they age silently... Despite everything, selfishness is all about "YOU"... and you only...

This goes unexplained but... when a stranger realizes a person is selfish... The blame immediately turns to the parents... "their parents must be selfish" or "they have bad parents" or the all so famous "they must have got that from their parents".... Despite the fact that the parents have busted the necks to educate their children, the blame remains hanging over their shoulders... Despite the fact that the parents are the most giving people within a 500mile radius, they are still to blame... Despite the fact that the parents are saints and try their best to prevent harm such as this word, Selfish, to prevail amongst their children, the fingers blatantly point towards them... Ignorant fingers of the malicious society... All of whom remain hypocrites, backsliders... hiding shamelessly behind the masks of the rotten society....

Lesson to be Learnt

Just another common day passes by... As we all continue on with our lives aimless each day... And yet, we still prevail... Another exam tomorrow, Math... just done studying for it... Hope that it'll work out well... My eyes are heavy, I feel a little sleepy... So, I'll try my best to write my way through...

As I wondered through this weary day aimlessly, my mind was gushed with memories... Childhood memories... As I flashback to the times of my foolishness and mischief, I recall a short story I once(more than once) heard from my father... It goes something like this... bear with me for a while... I will get ot the point right after this story... "A young black boy was strolling in the park undirected... And as he looks up to the vast blue skies... He spots a balloon... A white balloon to be exact... This balloon came from the park... he moved towards this section and he sees a tall man in his early 30's selling balloons to children no more older than him... And every 5minutes, this man releases a balloon into the sky to attract the attention of children... This black boy was distressed by a question... the boy asks the balloon salesman... If you let a black balloon into the air, will it float too?... The man answer, Why, of course... the man lets a black balloon drift through the skies... Then he looks to the boy and tells him... The colour of the balloon does not matter, it is what's on the inside that makes the balloon float"... This story does not exactly end here(i think)...but thats as far as i go for now... well... the point is... This young black boy learns that the colour of the skin does not really make a man... In fact, it is only the inside, the soul of a person which forges a true man... it is the heart of a person initiates the mold of a man... it is the person inside which fabricates a man of honour, trust and worthy... This is the lesson to be learnt...

However, what has the world come to? What has this wretched world come to... to be able to brainwash a young innocent child into thinking that he is not worthy of himself? What has this sordid world become... to be able to manipulate a child into thinking that he does not deserve to live like the any other? Has this pitiful world degraded into a place of such absolute remorse, such affliction, such sorrow... To be able to diminish the confidence of a child based on his bare skin colour? Is he to peel his skin off in order to be accepted by the community? Is he to bleach his very body just to be aprroved by the society of ignorance? Is he not just as worthy and honourable as any other?Is he not a miracle of God?

Value of Life

Past couple of days have been all about watching tv and listening to music just to do something... Just to past time... Something to do... Aside from renting movies and playing games... The only thing good bout weekend is the abscence of school... Actually, not the abscence of school... but the presence of sleep...Since I have been up to basically nothing, i'll try to redeem myself through my unstable thoughts and ferociuos words...

Well.... watching this movie "Weather Man"... got me really thinking about life again... It got me thinking about not only the meaning of life but life itself... Got me thinking about Where will life lead us to... Who are we in life and most of all.... The value of life... Destiny and fate is how some people answer the question where... I, for one, do not believe in feng shui or destiny or any of those mambo-jamboo.... It might be entertaining at moments of absolute disinterest... but thats as far as it goes.... the line is firmly drawn right there... these superstitions are, to me, no more than shere amusement.... God holds all our life in the palm of his hands... We are created by Him, we live by His rules and most of all, we live through Him... As for the question who we are in life... That is pretty simple through my eyes actually.... Life is an instrument... We use it the way we feel fit... No matter how many lesson you take, that instrument remains an instrument of mere will... You are who you want to be... Influencial factors such as God or parents, family or friends can only guide you, the rest is up to you... a man has got to do what a man's got to do...

However, when the pages turn to the value of life... It leaves a man wondering... In every man's life, there comes a question where no man is qualified to answer... What is the value of life... Life, to some people, might not mean much.... but to the rest of us, life is a chapter of dominance, an issue of superiority , a title by itself supreme, a topic worthy of time... Life can't be judged by a jury or by a supreme court... No man is worthy of answering this question... If a companion is dying of a certain heart disease, is it really our choice to transfer our hearts to the companion... If a remorseful teenager is pregnant, is it really her choice to conduct abortion... If a persons life is deranged with only tragedies and adversities, mishaps and hardships, calamities and afflictions, is it his/her choice to take away an item (if one may say) of such sacramental and unprofaned... Life... the mere thought of stealing life from its body is a defamation itself... It disgraces, devalues and diminishes the shere splendor and granduer of the word Life... It annihilates all thats left of one's virtues... one's dignity ... one's serenity...

Quotes:
A life without cause is a life without effect.
Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can.
Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once.

Mind & Will Power

Well....It's been about 5 days now, still waiting for those darn results for my Math and Science exam... Haihz... Today wasn't typical as just any other day... After lunch, the whole school was scheduled to be in the gym... For a Hypnotist's Performance... His name, Marc Sevard, not bad of a hypnotist...i guess.... First time ever seeing a real hypnotist(not one of those scams)... The show wasn't bad... 13 students hypnotized, made them do all kinds of stuff... Kind of funny actually...

Which generally leads me to my current post... Today's post unfortunately is not going to be about Life's Ethics... A day of change... Although it might involve life...Mind & Will Power... As most of you who Haven't seen one of these shows before... The utter understanding of this term might not be apprehended... The depth and width of this term, most of the time, has not been able to be grasped mentally by many(even me)... This term... is actually quite simple... The strength of ones mind, brain and intellectual... However, the depth, the never-ending abyss of this term is often unappreciated... In short, the mind can be a very powerful thing if there is a will to unleash this boundless power...

This unconfined power can only be unveiled by the will of the sub-conscious mind, the inner self, the "inner mind" some might say... And through hypnotizing, this inner mind can be unmasked... Allowing the mind to be working full-scale on the sub-conscience mind... Giving way to the manifested will of the all powerful mind... Thus, the mind indulges in the magic of ones will... The will of an average mortal can be quite an influencial device but at the same time, such a vigorous and in some circumstances, dangerous weapon... With the cooperation of the mind and the will... The body can become a machine, a tank, a weapon(The Hulk)... Think no pain, Feel no Pain... The enchanted wonders of the Mind & Will Power...

Quotes:
Men are not prisoners of fate, but prisoners of their own minds. (Franklin D. Roosevelt)
There is deep wisdom within our very flesh, if we can only come to our senses and feel it. (Elizabeth A. Benhnke.)
Our bodies are our gardens - our wills are our gardeners. (William Shakespeare)

Reality and Imperfection

The Social exam was an absolute catastrophe... This exam was my worst achivement in Canada so far... In a way, I have failed myself... 66% just don't cut it... That is a passing mark... but barely passing is just inadequate... Well... I don't ever plan to fail and dissapoint myself anymore... (hope not)... Well, no use regretting now, might as well learn from my so called mistakes...Anyways, its getting late, so i'll try my best to make this post short and sweet...and i might even try to butter it up a lil... considering that I am about to sleep...

We as humans, are born, raised and bred by humans... When we were once children, we all had a distinct fantasy about each and everyone of our family being the perfect peolpe... A family, of perfection... Children think of their parents as the perfect couple, unbreakable, untouchable, unbendable...and don't be misled here, parents are great, at least they were for me... However, family, (including cousins, aunts, uncles, etc.) are like great statues or priceless paintings... From a distance, they look absolutely flawless... but as you slowly motion further, there are cracks among the statues and faulty lines among the paintings... Those works of art remains priceless and cherished... And just like these sculptures, family stays love and cared for, regardless but reality crashes in... the whole world is just not that perfect no more... Not as flawless no more.. No more the paradisiac dream land...

And this is all part of growth... A boy deteriorates along side the scarcities of reality...A man is made by his mistakes and deficiencies... No man is perfect... There is always "room" to improve, emend, to elevate... Events and meetings should not be a regret just because it didn't go as planned... Paintings and statues should not be ignored just because it is consists of fault...Just as, Life shouldn't be a dissapointment just because reality isn't a perfect world...

Couple of quotes:
No one is perfect... that's why pencils have erasers.
Nothing that is complete breathes.
A man would do nothing if he waited until he could do it so well that no one could find fault.
Gold cannot be pure, and people cannot be perfect.
The imperfections of a man, his frailties, his faults, are just as important as his virtues. You can't separate them. They're wedded.

Where Does It End?

Today, despite this is one of my first days watching tv all day long.... I do not regret it one bit... because today was a day of the lord of the rings marathon... Its official now... I have watched every single version of lord of the rings, including all the extended versions... Finally, the long journey, the quest of all lord of the rings has finally been accomplished, successfully of course... Well, there wasn't really "rest of the day"... After i woke up, lunch, then the LOTR marathon began... That was basically my day... I have been watching LOTR since 11am and till about 11pm... So yeah...

Money... Money, a very strong word and great item in the matter of fact...To some people, money only seems to be just a mere object, an element, an item to be used when needed... To the rest, money is a matter of life... The value of life is judged by the amount of money and prosperity inherent... Some people think of money(in the wrong way, I suppose) as a heading of life..The main paragraph of the never-ending journey of life...(you get the point)...

The main point of all this is... To what extent should money should be taken to? Should money be the priority of life? Should we put money ahead of everything else? How much should money be esteemed? Wasn't money once made as means to replace trade? Isn't money a form of trade itself? Isn't money just merely a system created to purchase items of necessity or sometimes pleasure? It is important, but how much... Isn't that a question we all should be asking ourselves?

My mind is "semi-paralyzed" or temporarily disabled... so please forgive my somewhat senseless english...Here's a few quotes to atone for my atrocious writings:
They who are of the opinion that Money will do everything, may very well be suspected to do everything for Money.(George Savile)
It is an unfortunate human failing that a full pocketbook often groans more loudly than an empty stomach. (Franklin Roosevelt)
The real measure of your wealth is how much you'd be worth if you lost all your money. (unknown)
There are people who have money, and then there are people who are rich. (Coco Chanel)
Life shouldn't be printed on dollar bills.(Clifford Odets)

Freedom

Another day has passed, just like that, another day... Times waits for no man as they say... March has already come upon us... and I for one, do not realize the passing of this merciless time... An exam came and went just like that... Another one on the way... Social; Monday... How nice... Haihz... well, I guess that just means more studying later... 5 chapters of social to read through to complete 90 questions of an exam... "whoopieee-dooo" there goes my weekend... well, nothing much to my weekend anyways... might catch a movie or something like that...

Independence, salvation, release, sovereignty... All words best defined by a single word...and one word only; Freedom... To people of this modern world of oblivious crowd, freedom is a priviledge taken for granted...The careless and heedless people of this generation do not appreciate or even acknowledge(for the matter of fact) that freedom was once fought for... Freedom was once killed for... Freedom was once died for... And yet, people still do not realize the depth of this word freedom...

Freedom is a word defined as the condition of being free and unrestrained... However, to seize this condition, disputes, conflicts, wars and blood have been spilt over the freedom of a nation... Our very ancestors, great grandparents and grandparents were all victims of this wars and bloodsheds... However, grandchildren of this generation can't seem to extend to the depth of these disputes, these victims, these sacrifices... All for the sake of freedom... Freedom not only for them but for us... For their countrymen and the children and grandchildren... To be able to live freely without having to worry about the risks of being abused by those bloodthirsty Nazis or those sadistic Japs or those ruthless communists... Without having to worry about being shot at while walking on the streets... Without having to take pre-cautions every second of the day... Without being controlled by a foreigner... Being free...

Have they not sacrificed enough? Have they not fought enough? Have they not proved their freedom, our freedom to be worth the respect? At least Not to merely be taken for granted? Have they fought and died just for us to forget? Have we as free humans forgetten the sacrifice, the losts, the victims? Have we so blatantly forgotten History?

The patriot's blood is the seed of Freedom's tree.(Thomas Campbell)
Those who deny freedom to others deserve it not for themselves. (Abraham Lincoln)
It is easy to take liberty for granted, when you have never had it taken from you.(Dick Cheney)
In the truest sense, freedom cannot be bestowed; it must be achieved.(Frankiln D. Roosevelt)
Liberty has never come from the government. Liberty has always come from the subjects of it. The history of liberty is a history of resistance.(Woodrow Wilson)

Unforgettable Times

Fully aware of the work I was getting myself into, I remained decided about taking 3 core subjects in semester... I had a Math exam today, a Science exam tomorrow and a Social exam on Monday, how exciting "whoopiee-doo"...... And yet another week of school is about to pass... The earth remains rotating and the sun remains still.... Life Goes On...

As I was writing my essays on my religion assignment which is due on Monday, it got me really thinking back and reliving the unforgettable moments... The small instants where only you can remember...Those short times where only you might think its important... A moment treasured forever, by you and you only... For me, I have too many to be listed... Well, what can I say, I am a lucky man... Some people might think of being sick as a depressed interim... However, I try to make the best out of everything, be optimistic... I once had a high fever, nothing lethal, but I rested the whole day and night, and in the middle of the night, I wake up to see my dad standing right beside me, with his coarse hands over my "overheated" head, praying for me... Hoping ad praying that I would get better... When he finally saw my eyes open, he smiled at me(a smile of only a father) and softly told me to get some rest... This might not be much to most people but to me, it is...

And as I wrote that essay, I thought some more, and I vaguely remember this incident where I was sick, nauseated and unwell... I was vomitting nothing but water for about 1 hour or so... My body was becoming weak, frail and fragile, while my mom sat next to me in the clinic... And finally, I vomitted for the last time as I was about to faint... and as I was just about to pass out, my mom held me closely as only a mother could... That right there was instantaneously an unforgettable moment for me... and this post could go on for pages but I will have to stop right there...

Its times like these where a boy knows that he is greatly loved, cared and somewhat appreciated by his family... Its times like these that makes a boy feel the security of life, no matter the conditions (being sick, healthy, or even 3000 miles away) it doesn't really matter... Life is about memories and dreams... We relive the past just to prepare ourselves for the future...

A way to relive the good times, forget the bad and dream about the future.
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
Every man's memory is his private literature.
We do not remember days; we remember moments.
Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us.

A Mother's Dedication

When you were 8 years old, your mom bought you an ice-cream
and you thanked her by dripping it all over...
When you were 9 years old, your mom paid for your tuition fee
and you thanked her by not even bothering...
When you were 10 years old, your mom took you from one place to another
and you thanked her by arguing with her about not getting enough freedom...
When you were 11 years old, your mom took your friends and you to the movies
and you thanked her by sitting 5 rows away...
When you were 12 years old, your mom warned you about certain shows
and you thanked her by watching it anyway...
When you were 13 years old, your mom suggested a stylish haircut
and you thanked her by going against her suggestion...
When you were 14 years old, your mom told you not to smoke
and you thanked her by hiding cigarettes behind her back...
When you were 15 years old, your mom came home tired from work lookin for a hug
and you thanked her by not even saying a word...
When you were 16 years old, your mom taught you to drive
and you thanked her by leaving with the car every chance you got...
When you were 17 years old, your mom got high-speed internet
and you thanked her by using it all day long, ignoring her even more...
When you were 18 years old, your mom cried at your graduation
and you thanked her by getting drunk in a party till dawn...
When you were 19 years old, your mom took the initiative to drive you to campus
an you thanked her by asking her to stop down the road to avoid embarassment in front of friends...
When you were 25 years old, your mom worked hard to pay for your grand wedding
and you thanked her by moving to another half of the world...
When you finally were 50 years old, your mom turns ill
and you thanked her after all these years by ranting on about what a burden parents have become to children...

And one day, after a life of a mother was dedicated to her child, she quietly passes on... And everything you never did came crashing down on you like thunder to the heart... Guilt drowns your very soul... and all that was once good and precious to you is not so good no more..........

So, before this tragedy further its way through my somewhat ungrateful life, this is my little way of thanking my mother... For all she has, is and will do for me, just in case I haven't been as grateful as I could have been...

A Life Of A Teenager

It is the hour of the month now, a new month is about to ascend among us... and what a better way to start off the month than with a blizzard... "whoopie-doo"... Well, an assignment is due on Friday and I have to get it done with... So, today's post is gonna be short and sweet... Well, maybe not sweet but the short part is certainly in...Been kind off hectic past couple days, lots of work and studying as for the next three days will be occupied with exams and quiz and usual... Now that I have 3 cores in a semester, a little work comes a long way... Math, Science and Social... haihz...

Anyways, enough of all this studying "mambo-jambo"... Lets cut to the chase... A teenager's life today can be such a dream and for some, it is currently a living nightmare... With common tragedies which have come upon us in this hard times, parents try their hardest to live up to their children's needs... especially at the age of a teenager, the prime of life, the essential growth of oneself, physically, mentally, emotionally and psycologically, the foetus stage of a true man(woman)... It is the time where a person find oneself, good or bad... It is the stage of growth and puberty and the stage of a man forming a conscience, a self, an Ego... It is the stage where the child finally starts to experience life and slowly and progressively separate themselves from their parents(till a certain point)... Cruel and cold as it may sound, it is human nature...

These experiences, these growth, these changes are essential and crutial to the stages of becoming as what some might say "A True Person"... However, the way these experiences are attended to are up to the teenager him/herself... Most experiences are commemorated.. However, some experieces haunt the very living soul of a person... It just can't be helped in this modern world of everyday chaos and tragedies... For one, Divorces... A divorce can be hard on some teenagers, especially if it were a divorce of dispute... Abuse could be another example... Child abuse or even wife abuse, physical or mental, can be a major set abck in the life of a teenager... The list goes on and on, the sky is the limit... however, don't be misled, the commemorated experiences are not often forgotten... Like the time a teenager first gets his/her freedom of choice... How many of you teenagers there don't remember those days...The good old days... Well... This is basically the life of a teenager... Life has it's ups and downs, just a matter of how high and how low...

As usual, a couple of quotes from some more recognized people worthy of attention:

Don't laugh at a youth for his affectations; he is only trying on one face after another to find a face of his own. (Logan Pearsell Smith)
The best substitute for experience is being sixteen. (Raymond Duncan)
Adolescents are not monsters. They are just people trying to learn how to make it among the adults in the world, who are probably not so sure themselves. (Virginia Satir)

Honesty

Today... First day of actually geting back on track... Hope this is not my last... anyhow, today was just another casual weekend leisure... Mostly about relaxing and barely finishing up homework and studies...

Well... For the past 15 (going on 16) years of my life, this word...this honesty has consumed my memories... I, for one, have been engrossed with this word....word of truth. faith, fedility...a word of true honor... As a civilized boy, thriving to be a man of wisdom, honesty was, is and hopefully will remain one of my virtues... Honesty... This word, this term, lives in all of us... No matter the people who persistently proclaims honesty to be an obsolete tool in this modern world...

Honesty is no tool... It is a necessity... It is essential, vital, fundamental or even crutial, some might say, for the sake of humanity... To some, honesty is anachronistic, bygone, dated... The corruption of this sometimes inhumane world has not only caused wars and bloodshed but the true meaning of honesty... honesty has been gravely overshadowed by lies and deceit... Honesty is no longer an admirable virtue to some... Honesty has lost its path amongst us...(some of us) We have abandoned this word, we have deserted the true vitality of this word... We have forsaken it from within us... We have lost the touch to bring it back... subcounsciously or blatantly... Now, this word is barely whispered amongst ears... It is whispered as if the word itself is too frail and fragile to merely be mentioned.. As if this word is at a brink of extinction... As if it is being forsaken...by US...

Some quotes:
Honest men fear neither the light nor the dark. (Thomas Fuller)
No man has a good enough memory to make a successful liar. (Abraham Lincoln)
A half truth is a whole lie. (Yiddish Proverb)
Make yourself an honest man, and then you may be sure there is one less rascal in the world. (Thomas Carlyle)
A lie has speed, but truth has endurance. (Edgar J. Mohn)
Honesty is never seen sitting astride the fence. (unknown)

Back On the "Horse"

For those of you who were actually hoping for utter reading material... This is not the one... unless an interest in my life kindles within you... This day which hath been brought upon me shall be dwelled upon the so called "issues" of my current life...

I have lost track of the absolute time for the past 10 days or so now.... The mere purpose of life has been drifted from my blurry sight... I have blatantly and subconsciously been derailed from the routines of my sluggish days... however, I hope to be back on track... As they say... when one falls off a horse... Just get back on... hopefully... my "horse" is still loyally and patiently awaiting the arrival of its master... It is the 24th today... And I have not blogged for about 9 days now... This detachment has caused great grief to this fragile and frail heart of mine... My inspiration and the shere will to forge ahead in this written journey had been shadowed over by the unimportant, the inconsequential, the irrelevant... but no more (I hope)...no more will I stroll along the alleys of the insignificant...

Aside from my impudent side-tracks(this is where the pour grammar and brutal vocabulary generates), I have been kind of sick during the past Thursday(yesterday)... unfortunately, my feeble body could not fulfill the determined and dedicated will of my all so frail desire of cheese... Yes... Cheese... Well... Let's just say I learnt the lesson the hard way... and hopefully that was my very last one... Having to miss a quiz in school...which was a regretful loss for me... is an unfortunate event... Luckily, my body got over and got rid of the excessive amount of cheese from my system... Leaving me for a fast recovery... Just in time to replenish myself and commence a new beginning the very next day in school... Refreshing me with yet another exam... For the past week or so... my routine has been disrupted... but not anymore(I Hope)... For hope is all I can count on... (here are some quotes for you'll to compensate for this senseless post)

The only medicine for the miserable is Hope. (translated Shakespeare)

There is no hope unmingled with fear, and no fear unmingled with hope. (Baruch Spinoza)
Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers.(Robert Ingersoll)
Hope is like a road in the country; there was never a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence.(Lin Yutang)
Hope is but a shimmer of light amongst shadows. (Alexander Lim)

Memories

The winter is back to where it should be; Alberta... Nothing great about that... its -27 now and sadly, its going to be -25 whole day long tomorrow.. and for those who are not familiar with this, by this time, it should be at least -30... but I guess I got it easy... And with the wind chill, tomorrow is turning out to be around -30 to -38....haihz... Well, the nice weather was fun while it lasted... and besides, I am spoilt long enough with this B-E-AUtiful winter(so called)...

Learning about World War 2 today... It got me thinking about lots of stuff.... and this thinking has mainly brought me to... MEMORIES... Memories are to some of us, treasures of our absolute past... vague reminders of who we are and where we come from...Our origin, our source, the dawning of our very birth... To others however, memories are perceived as old lifelong nightmares...as a reminder of their grim, dreadful ancient history... A dream gone bad... and now, this dream, this nightmare, haunts the very living soul as a reminder...as a nightmare... as a memory...

For some of us, these revered memories are often revived and most definitely cherished... Its just like a sweet, pleasant dream which we hope we never have to leave.... to be able to endear our past with such high esteem... Nevertheless, if it weren't for the pain, joy wouldn't feel so good... To others, memories of such joy and happiness are not existent... Memories only revive agony and suffering... These brutal and cruel reminders are often abondoned, lapsed, disremembered some might say... but despite the effort, memories remain memories... It is like a nightmare to some, a reminder to the failures of the mere feeble mortals... It is no figment of imagination (althought some people would like to think so)...“Life gives us brief moments with another...but sometimes in those brief moments we get memories that last a life time..."
It is a persons choice to commemorate it or dwell upon it...

Memories are the treasures that we keep locked deep within the storehouse of our souls, to keep our hearts warm when we are lonely.
The best things in life come in threes, like friends, dreams, and memories.
We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.

Revenge

School went by in a flash today... Without realizing the time, school was over...Fast... And just like any other day, I took the public bus home... It's getting a little colder now...as the wind is coming around... and bringing along some snow too... All said and done... Winter's coming, it's getting colder now... So for all you guys interested in snow and the cold... "Whooopiee-doo"...And for the rest of us with a liking of 0-2degrees.... Get Dressed!!

An eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind... After publishing my last post, I couldn't get that expicit phrase to vacate my weary mind... This intelligible phrase was well-said by the wise peacemaker, Gandhi... This phrase is so simple yet so elaborate... This comprehensive phrase has lead this indifferent mind of mine towards another word... A word which represents retaliation, avengement, counterplay, malevolence, retribution and vengeance... This word is the source of the phrase itself; revenge... I have once heard... "Revenge is a meal best served cold"... Revenge has no other way of being served... There is nothing polite or courteous in revenge, no kindness or generosity, no sense of hospitality or charity... Revenge is just pure cold hearted payback, counterblow, reciprocate... The thought of it gives the chills right down the spine...

To some, revenge is manipulated to a necessity... some refer to revenge an eye for an eye... and this in fact, has become a compulsory act or what some might say, an excuse... A pathetic and petty excuse to hurt one that has once hurt you... and as most people do not understand, an eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind... Yes... We should not tolerate disrespect or insolence of others... but we should not take punishments too far... That was the cause of the Great Wars in the first place... ( All the countries were so blindly inspired by revenge which caused the World War)...

An eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind(Gandhi)
Revenge proves its own executioner(John Ford)
By taking revenge, a man is but even with his enemy; but in passing over it, he is superior.(Francis Bacon)
'Tis more noble to forgive, and more manly to despise, than to revenge an Injury.(Benjamin Franklin)
Those who plot the destruction of others often fall themselves.(Phaedrus)
Revenge is the naked idol of the worship of a semi-barbarous age. (Percy Bysshe Shelley)

Revenge taste as sweet as honey...at first... The aftertaste is just like rusted metal...

War

School has just begun and once again formed a routine to my life in its own unique way...

Learning about the World Wars has got me hecked up about war itself...Yes... I should not dwell in the past... However, this crutial event is an inevitable accident, unavoidable casualty which has unfortunately caused the whole world a great deal of suffering and shere torment, economically and politically... Even the mere thought itself is bloodcurling...battles, bloodsheds, conflicts, enmity, struggle... All terms associated with this brutal war... It has petrified, terrified and stupefied us all...

Wars not only causes economical and political breakdowns; racism, prejudice and sexism often comes along within the package of War... This war, this crutial battle has brought us all into depressions and breakdowns... These tensions of racisms, prejudices and sexisms have plagued our worlds since then... Despite the fact that the war is over, the effects of it still lingers among us... Reluctant to vacate the hearts and minds of (most) of our young men today... The French are (sometimes) still discriminated by the English, the Japs are (sometimes) still shun by the Chinese, the Natives are still... well, Natives... Women are still often underestimated despite their major contribution in the Wars which has gone by wordless, unsaid, unstated and concealed...

War has undoubtedly brought our once peaceful and harmonious world hatred, tension, anxiety and restlessness amongst countries and country-men... Amongst various races... Amongst men and women... and most of all Amongst this World of Ours... quotes of wisdom regarding senseless Wars :

Either war is obsolete or men are (R.Buckminster Fuller)
Violence is the first refuge of the incompetent. (Isaac Asimov)
You can no more win a war than you can win an earthquake.(Jeanette Rankin)
An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind. (Gandhi)
I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temporary; the evil it does is permanent.(Gandhi)

Jealousy

Just like any other weekend, today was a day to sleep, watch movies and eat....thats about it... basically, just plain ole typical lazing around...school's anout to start again tomorrow(after 4 days of holidays)...well, it was fun while it lasted...

Jealousy... A distinctively dangerous word... Resentment, malcontent, dismay, disliking... All representing HATE... envy is the only word that truely describes this word... this "jealousy"... Just like Hate, jealousy is the feeling of absolute despise and utter antipathy... Nevertheless, jealousy is not exactly HATE... It is the most common source of HATE... Jealousy is known as fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position. Or in other words, the fear of the success of others... The envy of the victories of everyone but "you"... painfully desirous of another's advantages...covetous of others possessions...

This diabolic, attrocious, covetous word, jealous, is an anticipated characteristic of any common mortal... In fact, it lies in the minds of any living creature crawling on this very earth... This characteristic, this instinct can be caused by a dispossession of any sought... To some, seeing others possessing an object of their liking could cause jealousy... For others, seeing others feeling happy could cause jealousy...

However, just like Hate, this jealousy is just another senseless, ridiculous, irrational, uncivilized, foolish instinct of ours... Logically, it makes more sense to hurt yourself than to be jealous... We, as so called civilized, godd-natured, gentle humans, should in fact be happy for the success, possessions and most of all, the happiness of others... Here are some wise men who had discremenated jealousy...

Envy is the ulcer of the soul. (Socrates)
Our envy of others devours us most of all. (Alexander Solzhenitsyn)
In jealousy there is more self-love than love. (Francois Duc de la Rochefoucauld)
So full of artless jealousy is guilt It spills itself in fearing to be spilt.(William Shakespeare)
The jealous are possessed by a mad devil and a dull spirit at the same time. (Johann Kaspar Lavater)
Jealousy, that dragon which slays love under the pretence of keeping it alive.

My Life

As I sat in a daze today(as usual), I suddenly realized something that came as a kind of shock to me... I used to be a guy with many friends... I used to be a little too friendly sometimes(in my opinion)... I used to love being around people and some people used to love being around me... However, being that I am in Canada now...away from Home Sweet Home... I have changed my attitude... and so have my lifestyle...

Life used to be all about friends, family and soccer when I was back home... However, I now realize that life is no more alike... for the most part... I used to hang around with a large group of friends and sometimes even would have fun... Now, however, I have lost interest to endure in this groups of people... I can't bear with crowds anymore... Maybe this is a part of growth, or maybe I've just been like this all the while... just took me some time to figure out my true self... I don't know... but what I do know is that Life is full of Amendments...Improvements or deteriorations... For better or worse...Life is amending...

My life used to evolve around people(friends)... Friends are still an undeniability... They still play a vital part in my life...at least a couple of them... Now, I have realized...and I have to accept the crutial fact... that I am not as close as I used to be to my friends back home(and vice versa)... Gradual decay is the name... Understanding the proven fact that people change and meet new people... I don't blame anyone for this devious gradual decay...

Well.... As they say...
"Life Goes On"
"Life is Full of Amendments"
And besides.. We're all on a fast track to death anyways (irrelevant)...

Hate

On this wonderful Friday morning(3pm)... The weather is great, suns out, pleasant wind brushing through my face, and to top it off(with a cherry), there's no school for me today... what else could a man ask for...

Resentment, dislike, spite, enmity, malevolence, despise... All words describing "HATE"... To many of you, this is not exactly a bombshell... Hate is one of the most vigorous yet severe natural instinct of any creature...This instinct blinds us blanatantly from the truth despite obvious evidents... Hate leads to grudges, anger and outrage (and vice versa)... It is the source of all discriminations and prejudices... Wars and bloodsheds have been caused by this lethal instinct... Hate is a stage of extreme and irrational resentment and malignity... It is a feeling of absolute despise and utter antipathy...

This atrocious word...this HATE... caused by mainly absurd reasons...(Here are a few)Jealousy, annoyance, malcontentment, mistrust, dissaproval, dismay or just plain ole frustration... Despite the fact that we, as rational, civilized, urbane humans, know the irrationality of this demented "hate"... We continue to pursue this instinct of ours( at least most people)... We, who call ourselves, intelligent, gracious, mannered, cultivating, considerate.... How could humans be called as such when we attend to such a foolish and ridiculous instinct...

Hate, I hope, is no longer in my vocabulary... I have tried and succeeded(hopefully) in disposing this instinct from my already corrupted system... This word does not represent anyone in my mind anymore... and I, for one, hope it never does... It has blinded me from the manifestation of the truth for far too long...
I am not about to dwell on this mindless, unsound, unreasoning instinct...This HATE...

Misguided Men

Waking up 1 in the afternoon was great...Finally, able to sleep peacefully... Able to rest without distractions or complications... Just simple, homely, sheer....Sleep...

History does nothing; it does not possess immense riches, it does not fight battles. It is men, real, living, who do all this... yes... Men(humans) are born responsible to run these tasks... however... How could this be when men today are sidetracked from life itself... Martin Luther King Jr. once said (something like)... "technology has surpassed religion... We have guided missiles and misguided MEN"... and I, for one, acknowledge this statement of truth...

Life for men these days does not mean anymore merely than "me, myself and I"... Humans as we know it are going through a phase of conversion...in spirit and mind... People are no longer concerned with the facts of the true sense of humanity... Men have overlooked the "forgetten ones"... The whole universe evolves around themselves these days... There is no meaning in right and wrong anymore...News regarding singers and NHL stars hit the news instantaneously, but when it comes to the odds of a survival of a child in Africa, not a word... Celebrities and superstars apprehend more attention than the sick people, children, of Africa, and India and etc...

There is no wrong in entertaining oneself... However, shouldn't the life of others be put beyond that? Shouldn't the bare survival of a civilization be put beyond all? Shouldn't we as humans be aghast by the true essence of life? Have we, as humans lost track of our priorities in life? Or are we just too blatant and ignorant to realize the troubles around us? Are we entirely too imbecilic and oblivious to realize the adversities of the true, real, living world???

It used to be obscure and now it is indisputable...
We have guided missiles and Misguided MEN....

Appreciation

This day has turned to be just GREAT... Shockingly, this day turned out to be one of those "perfect" days... It was B-E-Autiful... Had a fantastic shool day, came home, watched a movie or two, went for a jovial walk on this jolly ole day... On top of that, the weather is just heavenly(compared to past years)...

I stared upon the luminous stars which lie beyond the vast grasp of the sky looked as if they were floating so harmoniously within the corral of the clouds... Just seeking attention... Waiting for someone to stare mesmerized as I did... Patiently awaiting a crowd of spectators... Awaiting the eager audience... However, just like people, feeble mortals, these stars do not always attain the desires, cravings or sometimes even deservings... Well, as we all know by now... life is not fair most of the time(Doesn't take a genius to figure that out)...

However, this bias...this foul injustice can't be used as a sorry and pathetic excuse of failing in life... Failing to achieve one's goal... That does not qualify as an excuse for failing to try again... Life is not always fair... On the other hand, this crooked fact helps us to realize that we, as humans, often take things for granted... It is mostly human nature to accept a certain prestige for granted... But, do we truly appreciate the fact that we are nourished with clean water and edible food? Some of the largest countries(India, Africa, Pakistan...) are living in misery and desperation while we("civilized" countries) drink our clean water and eat our delish meals without sincerely appreciating it... Those steaks and wines going down those throats seem to be more than a mere dream to the unfortunate people of the second world countries... Even broccoli might appear to be a savored delicacy there...People of this generation are unaware of the importance and significance of clean water and good...GREAT food... These two basic elements could mean the survival of one more child in Africa or India... Aren't they worthy of life just like the rest of us?

Yes... Most people who read this might say..."Not wasting food on my plate does not mean extra food in the bare hands of others"...Yes, thats true... However, it is the principle...the thought, the appreciation of life itself that undoubtedly counts...

Death

Past couple of days has gone by fast.. as fast as can be... It did go as planned though... School, Snooze, Tv, Homework, Sleep.... and so on and so forth... Just as the all respected Tupac used to say... LIFE GOES ON...

The unfortunate incident got me thinking about the death of Tupac... To be more specific... Death itself... As I had said before, life is not about birth ad death.. Death is just a phase of life that all of us feeble mortals are compelled to experience...Sooner or later(Rather later than sooner)... Death to some people could mean the end of life... However, that is actually a new beginning or better yet a beginning of an end... Death shouldn't be mourned or feared... Death is an experience we all are destined to face...

Yes... The horrid and petrifying thought of having to lose our loved ones disheartens our very souls(yes..It does)... However, doesn't death also lead the deceased to a better place, a more "heavenly" place? Dying does mean end of life.... on earth... Death should also be considered as a "Passage To Heaven"... Both my grandparents have (unfortunately) passed on now... However, I rest asure knowing that two of my beloved and memorialized grandparents are resting in a more..."elevated" and paradisaical place... Yes... It is true... I have mourned over my most dearest grandparents... However, I have learnt that death is not always a "bad" thing... and I have celebrated their appeased and harmonious life... They might not be physically present... but their hearts and souls will be with us(rest of my family) till the day we meet our time... Till the day that our grandchildren will commerate our lives... Till the day I join them in heaven.. this elevated and paradisaical place...

Missed

Annapolis was a great movie....quite inspiring actually... I basically spent whats left of my night doing my social homework... which was kind of a pain in the neck...

As a foreign student, I am aware of my friends and families' astounding presence... I appreciate the good times and miss them at times... But as I thought of it... This phrase... this verbalism... turned out to be remarkably true... " We don't miss things that are not gone"... To me, that slogan is "THE" slogan... That catchphrase runs through my troublesome mind everyday... I for one, realize the depth of that phrase... Having friends and families 3000 miles away isn't an ideal situation (not complaining or anything)... It has it times... however, most people do not understand the great deal of crave or desire which could be caused by this tormenting word...MISS...

In my point, I miss my home, my family, my friends(a couple of them at least) , and food(can't forget that)... And the ONLY reason i crave for these are because they are gone from the reach of my arms...I never truely realized the benevolence of home until life grabbed me by the balls ... And just like most people, "you never know what you're missing till it's gone"... Most family and friends will be waiting for that long anticipated call from the guy overseas... And when they do receive it, it's like an adrenaline rush... However, the rush does diminish... As soon as the guy from overseas calls once too many... the rush subsides rapidly... the more they communicate, the less the call is appreciated... Before you know it.... BHAAMMM... just like that, the guy is barely missed.... It doesn't matter after a while where the guy remains... He becomes just like any other... a commoner... no reason to be missed anymore...

Revolution

Today... Being that it is a Saturday, my day only started approximately after one... And as usual....I have been just lazing around for the past couple hours(since I woke up)... Going to watch Annapolis after this... the movie looks great...

As I sat and thought about revolution... I finally realized... It has become a part of us in this ever influential generation... Think about it... We are entering a whole new era now... From writing to typing... From talking to chatting online... From walking to driving... From bumping into each other to crashing into each other... From just basic pen and paper to scientific calculators and notepads... From classes to (for some people) videos... From radio casts to podcasts... From computers to laptops... The world as we know it is irresolute... This world... this community of ours is going through a major phase of alteration as we speak and the bloodcurdling part is that most of us do not realize this so called "cultivating" alteration...Even dogs are substituted with machinery (robot dogs)...

Yes...Many might say this is a major breakthrough... It has been what we have been waiting for all our lives... Many of us say this is what life is about; technology, revolution, or even progression... But is it really??? Is it really such an aticipated buildup? Is this really what life is about? This revolution...this innovation does make life easier for us and our children... but does it not, at the same time, strike us with agony and distress? From swords to guns... doesn't it simply make killing an easier task? From atom bombs to nuclear bombs? Does it not elucidate the act of demolition? Does it not make it easier to wipe out a whole country? For us animal lovers, what will happen to our pets when dogs and cats are no longer needed? When our pooches and kitties are compensated with machineries? Who would those loving animals turn to then?

Sooner or later... we humans will realize our mistakes... and our sons and daughters will pay dearly for our foolish mistakes...
this revolution of ours............

Children

Another day passes by, which makes it that much closer to the day of departure back to "Home Sweet Home"... Just like any other day, life goes on... but just with a little more homework to attend...

Children... The leaders of tomorrow... The next generation... Inventors, authors, artists, technicians, and teachers of the future... Children... To some, they are known as cute, cuddly, ravishing and maybe even seductive to some point... However, to the rest of us, children are like wearisome music... Listening to it more than once can be calamitous.. In other words, some people find children to be antagonists... Despite all the likes and dislikes... It remains a fact, although not realized, children hold our future world in the tip of their fingers...

In the end, it all comes down to the way children are raised... Children are like fragile, delicate, feeble, flowers just waiting to bloom... Unlike any other time, childhood is a stage of a mortal on the verge of knowledge... They are like wild animals just waiting to be unleashed and to attain consciousness... Being a parent isn't as easy as what most people expect... All the preasure are weighted on their shoulders... The future well-being of the world and community all depends on the raising of their children...Offering a lot of freedom and advantages could cause a child to be pampered and spoilt...or anarchistic, contumatious and rebellious... However, at the same time, punishing and being harsh on a child could cause a child to feel rejected, alienated or somewhat deserted by the ones they love most...

Don't children deserve freedom of choice? Should chidren be disciplined for the right reasons? Should parents be relatively harsh on children at times of desperation? Well, the answer is yes to all... but the real question is " TO WHAT EXTEND???"

Corruption

February 2nd, how fast time has past since I have been placed upon this vast lands of Canada... first semester has ended in a blink... and now, today, this very day, my report card was distributed... Fortunately, I didn't do too bad... except for my English with a 77 overall mark... Well, no use regretting it now... I tried my hardest and thats what I got...

As I was reading through some articles regarding the political issues of Malaysia, corruption comes to my thoughts...once again... Corruption... known to most of us as crookedness... Most of us are not bothered by this crookedness... That is in fact because most of us do not realize that this exploitation...this fraudulency affects us all... Corruption has built such a reputation that it is no longer surprising to mention or detect this wretched word... this corruption...

It used to be where corruption only happens amongs politicians and legislators... However, these damned fools fooled us all... They have slowly and fragmentarily dragged every single innocent citizen down the drain along with their senseless trash... Those green-eyed, avaracious, penny-pinching pricks have not only corrupted our cops and policemen but our educators and professors too... Somehow, they have "made" it right for the muslims to gain extra interest in terms or education and financially... And despite everythin, those muslims are taking their life for granted... not all of them though...

Why should muslims receive better conditions in financial matters? Are they poorer? Does it not seem unfair to the rest? Should the only students receive legitamate scholarships and loans be muslims? Why must corruption go on and on like this? Why must the children of Malaysia experience this harsh yet ridiculous fact? Is this how we want to raise our children, our country of a multiracial community? Isn't Malaysia supposed to be known for their so called "great" equality or peace?

Is this how the children of Malaysia should remember their dreadful and abomidable past?